Always Questioning

Life is a constant series of questions. I don't have any answers, but I keep asking.
Healthy vegan salad for dinner! Soo good. #vegan #eattolive

Healthy vegan salad for dinner! Soo good. #vegan #eattolive

Tulsa symphony in the park! #tso #insideout  @enewp @therealjaredmorgan

Tulsa symphony in the park! #tso #insideout @enewp @therealjaredmorgan

East village street festival. #beatlesmusic #sold

East village street festival. #beatlesmusic #sold

Happy #nationalsiblingsday to the two people I can count on for anything. I am so lucky to have had these two crazy people show me the way through this thing called life! And they helped me understand mom! Love you two!!! @dawnonealstephens

Happy #nationalsiblingsday to the two people I can count on for anything. I am so lucky to have had these two crazy people show me the way through this thing called life! And they helped me understand mom! Love you two!!! @dawnonealstephens

Homemade vegan white bean and kale soup. #yummy #vegan

Homemade vegan white bean and kale soup. #yummy #vegan

Are we sure it’s not Friday? @lauracromwell1 @rkaiser33

Are we sure it’s not Friday? @lauracromwell1 @rkaiser33

wiseandfeisty:

I’ve eaten so many delicious things today oh my god

I had:

-Pumpkin things with peanut butter (AND AGAIN TOMORROW I CAN’T BE STOPPED)
-Tuna salad with bell pepper
-Greens with roasted chicken thigh, brown mustard, and honey mustard dressing
-And THIS DESSERT hngggg


OKAY so first I made greek yogurt protein cookies and cream ice cream.

You heard me.

So basically I really wanted to buy the Cellucor cookies and cream whey and make cookies and cream ice cream; I figured they wouldn’t have the cake batter one since it’s only online but maybe they’d have this one? Well I went to GNC and they don’t carry Cellucor whey. Balls.

So, when I was at Trader Joes, I got their gluten free Joe-Joes (aka Oreos), and devised a plan. I took 16oz greek yogurt, 46g vanilla whey, and mixed together in a flat tupperware. Then I added vanilla SF syrup, extract, and two crushed up cookies. Stir, freeze, take out and stir again every hour or so, and divide into two containers.

FUCKING COOKIES AND CREAM PROTEIN ICE CREAM.

While it was ice creaming I made the chocolate fudge sauce I posted about earlier, and then later right before I had this I baked a cookies and cream quest bar. So that’s this epic protein dessert monstrosity here. It was unbelievably good.

I’m in one of those phases where finding dupes of stuff is really fun for me, and I am enjoying being creative in the kitchen. Sometimes you just need ice cream and all you want is the real deal sort of dessert but I was so satisfied by mine, I really was, and I didn’t feel awful from eating sugar. So I’m very happy. And I got in like 63g protein from my dessert too so…

I’m feeling so so so good right now. I PRed three times this week, I didn’t binge, I didn’t eat any foods that make me feel poorly, I am in a headspace where eating at a deficit doesn’t feel restrictive, and I am just really really happy.

I think my time off work has really impacted this, which is making me realize that work makes me sort of miserable. There are aspects I enjoy, like it is super easy obviously and I like most of my coworkers, but I am really done with this type of customer service, and with food service in general. It drains me on so many levels, it makes me cranky, and I dread it. I am realizing I am looking forward to not working there. I know I will have to get a similar job for the remainder of my time as a student but hopefully I can find something more along the lines of a receptionist type position.

It’s both good and bad to realize this because I do still have to work there for five more months, but it’s okay. It just means I need to try really hard to make the other things in my life amazing, and work towards my larger goals in all areas of my life.

This started out about frozen yogurt and ended up about my job. How do I even with train of thought???